So I went to that pary last night, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I still ended up leaving because I couldn't handle it, but I am surprised that Carol was really upset that I left without saying anything to her. It made me think that maybe she still did love me.
But today she did something that seriously crushed me. She said that she's hopefully going to be moving back and I was super excited because I could finally be with her again. But she also told me that she thinks it'd be best it we didn't go out again. Because she wants to maintain a long distance relationship with the guy she's dating now.
This is fucking bullshit because last August she told me that she didn't want to do a long distance relationship with me, but that we could go out again if she ever came back for good. But now she's coming back, and she'll do the long distance shit for him but she wouldn't do it for me, the one she said she's always been in love with.
I fucking love[d] this girl and she fucking did this to me! I don't even want her to come back anymore! I want her to fucking stay where she is so she can be fucking happy with the new love of her fucking life >O
The only possible slight upside to this whole thing is that Kristy went through some of the same drama with Kevin last night, and it seems that we're the only ones that really understand each other right now, it seems like we might be able to stay pretty good friends even though she dumped me on Thursday. We've both gotta try to get over the people we loved for so long... and it's not going to be very easy for either of us. ]=
But today she did something that seriously crushed me. She said that she's hopefully going to be moving back and I was super excited because I could finally be with her again. But she also told me that she thinks it'd be best it we didn't go out again. Because she wants to maintain a long distance relationship with the guy she's dating now.
This is fucking bullshit because last August she told me that she didn't want to do a long distance relationship with me, but that we could go out again if she ever came back for good. But now she's coming back, and she'll do the long distance shit for him but she wouldn't do it for me, the one she said she's always been in love with.
I fucking love[d] this girl and she fucking did this to me! I don't even want her to come back anymore! I want her to fucking stay where she is so she can be fucking happy with the new love of her fucking life >O
The only possible slight upside to this whole thing is that Kristy went through some of the same drama with Kevin last night, and it seems that we're the only ones that really understand each other right now, it seems like we might be able to stay pretty good friends even though she dumped me on Thursday. We've both gotta try to get over the people we loved for so long... and it's not going to be very easy for either of us. ]=
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